Nitwit. Blubber. Oddment. Tweak.

はじめまして。

Have you ever known someone who has died, but didn’t know them well enough to feel as though you have any right to grieve over their death? That’s how I feel with Emily. Her funeral was today, and I’ve been sitting at work all day thinking of her, and intermittently crying. She was 27 years young, and killed in a car crash on her way to work. 

She was an organ donor and her organs helped save the lives of 3 people. But it’s still hard to believe she’s gone. It really feels like a dream. 

I just remember sitting at my friend, Kim’s, wedding rehearsal dinner, and listening to Emily speak, and everyone at the table laughing. That’s how she was at Kim’s wedding shower, too. The girl that had everyone laughing. She was beautiful. 

It’s really hit home with me. When I was little, I used to think late 20s was old. Now I’m there and I think, she was just a baby. She didn’t deserve this. 

I’m not exactly certain what caused the car crash, but they think was due to stop-and-go traffic in a construction zone on I-64. She is the second person I know now who was killed on I-64 in their 20s… I have had an irrational fear of travelling on this interstate since my best friend’s brother was killed in a car crash several years ago. He was 24. My husband drives on this interstate every day to work, and every day I feel like I’m going to have a heart attack waiting to hear from him that he made it safely. I wish roads were safer. I wish people were more careful.

Emily, I’m so sorry your life was suddenly taken from you. Your friends and family loved you so much, and in your death you’ve given new life to many others. One day we’ll meet again.

Nose to nose snoozin’. 💤

#corgi #welshcorgi #narddog #weeklyfluff

Nose to nose snoozin’. 💤 #corgi #welshcorgi #narddog #weeklyfluff

Still working on that beauty blog.

Still working on that beauty blog.

Guinness induced selfie.  (at Lantern)

Guinness induced selfie. (at Lantern)

My husband’s a pro. #pool #thelantern  (at Lantern)

My husband’s a pro. #pool #thelantern (at Lantern)

Dumbledore 💙

Dumbledore 💙

I just found out a girl I know died in a car crash yesterday. Same age as me. I am in shock. I feel so horrible for her family.

I just can’t believe it. It makes me want to go hug my family and friends and tell everyone I love them. I am so saddened by this. Emily, we didn’t know each other very well, but I am so sorry.

This makes me sick. To think that I was once an aspiring MK consultant! I was in DIQ and everything! But I quickly learned while in DIQ all of the actual ropes you MUST jump through to attain and maintain directorship… which led me to the realization it is not possible unless you want to go into some major debt.
(By the way, this poster was outside of King’s Island in Cinci yesterday. This is an event to attempt to recruit people. I would know. I know their tactics. If a MK rep ever calls you or messages you with, “I need a makeover model,” or, “You’ve won a free facial!” OR things similar to the poster, RUN IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION! It’s a RECRUITING EVENT! They’ll sugarcoat it to make it seem otherwise, but that is their ulterior motive.)
I also realized how many lies and manipulations I’d been put through while on my MK journey. No matter how ethical I wanted to run my own business, it was nearly impossible. While in MK you find yourself slowly turning into someone you never wanted to be… some stalker, someone who only looks at women as dollar signs, someone who drives her friends away. It happens with all MK women no matter what your intentions were when first signing up.
I was over $2k in debt. I’d never been in debt before, and it was really stressing me out. I know other MK women who I’ve talked to since leaving… that have left the company because they were $30k+ in debt OR had to file for bankruptcy. So my little $2k seems small in comparison. Fortunately I wised up to the entire facade of directorship before my 1 year inventory purchase and I was able to return it all and get a refund, pay off the debt, and actually had enough leftover to pay for part of Andy’s schooling. That was nice.
It’s sad and embarrassing to me to look back and think that I could have been one of the women who could go into this company with integrity and change the practices so they were truly ethical practices… it is really sad. I wanted so badly to make that work. But they tell you half-truths all the way up until you are in the process of DIQ… because if they told you all of the truth up front, you would never join this company.
It has led me to starting back to school to finish my esthetics license, though. Makeup and skin care has always been a passion of mine, so I am thankful that MK helped me realize that I really DO love working with clients to discuss skin care and help them with their makeup… but I need to do it in a professional setting with an actual license.
It has also helped me sit back and evaluate why I decided to join MK. 1) To make some extra $ here and there. 2) to get the products 50% off, which was great since I use their skin care line (also… they tell you just by signing up you’ll get the products at that discount- lies! You have to place a $225 order every 3 months to maintain the discount) 3) to start a beauty blog using MK cosmetics and other cosmetics.
I never got my beauty blog off the ground. It’s all set up and ready to go. I made one post. I told my director about it and she told me I might not be able to do it because MK Inc probably wouldn’t want me doing it. So, I thought perhaps I could just use other makeup instead. Afterall, I adore all sorts of cosmetics. But in MK you are discouraged from using ANY OTHER skin care line or cosmetics. You are reprimanded if you admit to using other brands. For over a year I let them bully and pressure me into not using some of my favorite brands. And let me tell you this— MK cosmetics makes my face burn. Burn! The skin care is fine, but not the cosmetics. I would suck it up and deal with it, because they said you are a walking advertisement if you wear their makeup, but I never.. not once, got a compliment on my MK makeup. Anyway, that’s why I never got my blog running.
But now. Now we are setting things up (Andy & I will run it together) and we will get the show on the road. I’ve wanted to do one for so long, and I’ve had the domain name purchased for 2 years now, with 1 year of the name remaining. I need to get on board with it for at least a year and see what I think about it 1 year from now.
Honestly I am terrified of the cruel comments that are inevitable. You know some hard hearted person will get on there and rip me to shreds. There could be hundreds that do that. The fear of that is almost crippling. I am also afraid because there’s so many beauty blogs out there. Why bother? And the thought keeps coming into my head, “You’re not pretty enough.” Sigh. I’ve decided that I will suck it up and give it a go, and work through the fear and doubts anyway.

This makes me sick. To think that I was once an aspiring MK consultant! I was in DIQ and everything! But I quickly learned while in DIQ all of the actual ropes you MUST jump through to attain and maintain directorship… which led me to the realization it is not possible unless you want to go into some major debt.

(By the way, this poster was outside of King’s Island in Cinci yesterday. This is an event to attempt to recruit people. I would know. I know their tactics. If a MK rep ever calls you or messages you with, “I need a makeover model,” or, “You’ve won a free facial!” OR things similar to the poster, RUN IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION! It’s a RECRUITING EVENT! They’ll sugarcoat it to make it seem otherwise, but that is their ulterior motive.)

I also realized how many lies and manipulations I’d been put through while on my MK journey. No matter how ethical I wanted to run my own business, it was nearly impossible. While in MK you find yourself slowly turning into someone you never wanted to be… some stalker, someone who only looks at women as dollar signs, someone who drives her friends away. It happens with all MK women no matter what your intentions were when first signing up.

I was over $2k in debt. I’d never been in debt before, and it was really stressing me out. I know other MK women who I’ve talked to since leaving… that have left the company because they were $30k+ in debt OR had to file for bankruptcy. So my little $2k seems small in comparison. Fortunately I wised up to the entire facade of directorship before my 1 year inventory purchase and I was able to return it all and get a refund, pay off the debt, and actually had enough leftover to pay for part of Andy’s schooling. That was nice.

It’s sad and embarrassing to me to look back and think that I could have been one of the women who could go into this company with integrity and change the practices so they were truly ethical practices… it is really sad. I wanted so badly to make that work. But they tell you half-truths all the way up until you are in the process of DIQ… because if they told you all of the truth up front, you would never join this company.

It has led me to starting back to school to finish my esthetics license, though. Makeup and skin care has always been a passion of mine, so I am thankful that MK helped me realize that I really DO love working with clients to discuss skin care and help them with their makeup… but I need to do it in a professional setting with an actual license.

It has also helped me sit back and evaluate why I decided to join MK. 1) To make some extra $ here and there. 2) to get the products 50% off, which was great since I use their skin care line (also… they tell you just by signing up you’ll get the products at that discount- lies! You have to place a $225 order every 3 months to maintain the discount) 3) to start a beauty blog using MK cosmetics and other cosmetics.

I never got my beauty blog off the ground. It’s all set up and ready to go. I made one post. I told my director about it and she told me I might not be able to do it because MK Inc probably wouldn’t want me doing it. So, I thought perhaps I could just use other makeup instead. Afterall, I adore all sorts of cosmetics. But in MK you are discouraged from using ANY OTHER skin care line or cosmetics. You are reprimanded if you admit to using other brands. For over a year I let them bully and pressure me into not using some of my favorite brands. And let me tell you this— MK cosmetics makes my face burn. Burn! The skin care is fine, but not the cosmetics. I would suck it up and deal with it, because they said you are a walking advertisement if you wear their makeup, but I never.. not once, got a compliment on my MK makeup. Anyway, that’s why I never got my blog running.

But now. Now we are setting things up (Andy & I will run it together) and we will get the show on the road. I’ve wanted to do one for so long, and I’ve had the domain name purchased for 2 years now, with 1 year of the name remaining. I need to get on board with it for at least a year and see what I think about it 1 year from now.

Honestly I am terrified of the cruel comments that are inevitable. You know some hard hearted person will get on there and rip me to shreds. There could be hundreds that do that. The fear of that is almost crippling. I am also afraid because there’s so many beauty blogs out there. Why bother? And the thought keeps coming into my head, “You’re not pretty enough.” Sigh. I’ve decided that I will suck it up and give it a go, and work through the fear and doubts anyway.

Coaster selfies.

Coaster selfies.

Rawr.

Rawr.

Great day at Kings Island!

Great day at Kings Island!

Got our caricatures @grace_apts

Got our caricatures @grace_apts

The main reason I go to King’s Island.

The main reason I go to King’s Island.

King’s Island today.

King’s Island today.